When I first started meditating on the word surrender I felt like God was telling me to surrender my worries and need for control. You can read more about that here. Since that time I have felt that God is telling me to surrender:
- My "need" for control and comfort in my life
- My body image
- My feelings/emotions
- My husband
- My children
- Extended family and friends
- My job
- My discontentment
- My "need" for happiness
The list could go on and on. I am sure that God will continue to reveal to me different ways that I need to surrender through the rest of my life. I know that I am not the only one that struggles with laying these things down at Jesus's feet. I thought that by writing about my struggles with clinging too tightly to anything but Jesus, that maybe it would strike a chord with someone else and that they could be blessed and grow closer to Jesus as well. I think that is the ultimate goal here on Earth. We need to help as many people run to the loving arms of our Savior as we can.
I will be writing about what I am wrestling with and what God is putting on my heart to share. I am a wife and a mother of 3, so I will also add stories about dealing with everyday life as well.
I have been doing a Bible study on David and I thought there was a quote in there from Jesus that reminds me that I should not be holding on to things of this Earth.
"So Pilate entered his headquarters again and called Jesus and said to him, "Are you the King of the Jews?" Jesus answered, "Do you say this of our own accord, or did others say it to you about me?" Pilate answered, "Am I a Jew? Your own nation and the chief of priests have delivered you over to me. What have you done?" Jesus answered, "My kingdom is not of this world. If my kingdom were of this world, my servants would have been fighting, that I might not be delivered over to the Jews. But my kingdom is not of this world." Then Pilate said to him, "So you are a king?" Jesus answered, "You say that I am a king. For this purpose I was born and for this purpose I have come into the world--to bear witness to the truth. Everyone who is of the truth listens to my voice."
Jesus's kingdom is not of this world. I don't have to run to the world for my contentment. I need to run to Jesus and find true contentment in Him.
